Jessie T. Wolf
Different Kinds Of Relationships|
All I can tell you is that waiting doesn't hurt.
Before Sirus I came out of a really painful relationship. Details can be asked privately if you want to know. But for here, I'll just leave it at the fact that it was a bad relationship. Abusive towards the end. Sirus was there to listen to me. To talk to me. To slap me when I needed it. He was there the entire time I was coming back from the dead zone I'd been in since that relationship ended. And I was afraid of a relationship again. Afraid it'd all happen again. I was afraid of men. But just like you said, there were the 7 hour conversations. There was this deeper knowledge that we had both become dependant on each other to be there and to never leave. And suddenly, one day... I just -had- to say it. I just -had- to tell him. I just -had- to have him and be with him and call him mine and be called his.
Waiting doesn't hurt. Waiting lets us heal. Waiting makes sure it's real. When the day comes, you'll know it. Because when the day really does come, you won't have a choice. You won't be able to resist.
oh, and btw, im me sometime or something!
|Date:||March 18th, 2005 04:14 am (UTC)|| |
Thank you for the kind words!! *wags* Oh, I know all about abusive relationships! O.x In fact, 2 was the one who helped me to get out of one. I really do love him, and look up to him, very much! But I'm very glad that he and I have managed to stay so close, despite the fact that the distance between us made a relationship kind of difficult.
But yeah, taking things slowly with Jay, for now. It's not the distance I mind. It's the fear of weather or not it will last! Getting into a long-distance relationship is not a problem for me, as long as I know that eventually plans are in the works to move to be closer, so that it's not long-distance anymore. 2 and I had a very hard time trying to physically plan a move, as we didn't meet many of the requirements for me to be able to immigrate legally into the U.S. to live with him. :/ If I eventually do make the decision to be with Jay, I want to know that sometime in the future, we actually DO have a chance at physically being able to live together, and stuff.
So, just taking it one day at a time for now, and we'll just see where things lead!
I don't have your AIM name! I need to add it to my list for you to be able to see me as Online. :-P Send it to my e-mail! Wlfdog @ hotmail.com