What Direction? - Jessie T. Wolf
Ya know… been thinking a lot about what direction my life’s been pointing too, lately. Felt kind of stuck for a good while, then thought I had a direction. Then that changed suddenly, and I was stuck again. I seem to be happiest when I have some kind of goal to set and then look forward to completing. Though… most of my goals thus far have kind of just… stopped. X.x And so now, time to look for a new direction.
So maybe it’s not time for me to move on with my own life quite yet? Maybe I should just stay where I am, and concentrate on trying to help my mom get back on her feet first, before I worry about my own life. I have no long-term plans anymore anyway… I’m also tired about worrying over everything. >.<
Ugh. No matter what I do, I still feel trapped in some way. Still wish I could just settle down, and be happy, especially with someone to call my own again. Though for the past few months, Mr. Jay Kitty has been really good to me. Care a lot about him. And yeah, he makes me feel much happier. ^^ I really appreciate that he can put up with my silliness, and that he respects the fact that I need to take things slowly for now. Arf. Such a good, patient Kitty. <:} Will be nice to hang with him at Furry Weekend Atlanta.
Also miss my Gryphy. But at least I’ll get to see him in a couple of weeks as well, and happy that I can spend Valentine’s Day with him for a bit, before I have to catch my flight back home. So much work to do for that con yet, and I still don’t even have any notes written out for my panels. O.o I gotta get cracking!! *runs around like a crazy wolfdog!*
Current Mood: thoughtful
Awwww...wish I could see you too ;_;
*hugs and mew-whimpers*
Just lead a good life and see where it leads okay?Let a big lonely dragon see it through with you ;_; *hugs and tummyrubs*
|Date:||January 28th, 2005 07:54 pm (UTC)|| |
"I still don't even have any notes written out for my panels".
Ah, you're going to be one of those "organized" people and actually write out a decent outline for your panel. Silly you. :-p
WHAT?! No improv?! ;p I still have to figure out exactly how we're all making it to the airport, though I have a good idea.. that will involve some very tight scheduling... and me waking up on thursday on time... must.. get..sugarness... or.. caffination.
Sounds like the perfect time to look for direction and change.
Then it's something catered to you, and the rest will fall in around it. Not plans revolving around keeping someone else happy ....
I reccoemnd looking for a direction to take your life in, but try to take it easy while doing so. You want to avoid getting too stressed out about the direction your life goes in. Once you find your goals, the rest will fall in line.
There goes any idea I might've had ;P
Don't stress yourself thinking you have to belong somewhere. As long as you're sure you're not dependent on relationships, you can probably proceed on a healthier course with those you care about. That's the ultimate goal and I think you're wise and prudent (especially for your age) for realizing it.
I just slept for 12 hours to recover from my work bout, so I'm finally able to put together cohesive thoughts. And it looks like I'll be getting Thursday night before the convention off, so there's a chance I'll be around on the day you arrive for FWA. I look forward to seeing you there, Jessie :)
|Date:||January 29th, 2005 10:08 am (UTC)|| |
What can I say really? Goals are the driving force of everyone. Sounds silly and redundant, but I know you well enough Jess, and like me, unless there's some sort of plan laid out, you get a bit lost.
There's nothing wrong with trying to get things at home taken care of. Very noble task actually, as your mother is a very nice person. Goals are a wonderful thing, but sometimes you need to break things down into smaller steps. Your ultimate plan seems to be getting a life of our own, and quite frankly, you've been doin that all along. Keep that as your big goal, but put some minor stepping stones on your path too. Achieving little tasks along the way not only gives ya bigger sence of acomplishment, but makes the long journey an easier one. Hell, sometimes, those little (gamer alert) Side-Quests of life, give you the connection, money or motivation needed to reach the next step.
There's nothing wrong with taking a break. I had to do so myself a few years ago - I stopped school for a quarter, just worked a little, and basically hid under a rock. Once I'd gotten my feet back under me a bit, I started slowly looking for a direction. Once I finally found one, I ran with it!
Just sit back and leave yourself open to whatever comes along. Stabilize your life, so you'll be ready to move when the opportunity presents itself. And in the meantime...Relax and have fun! =)
|Date:||February 3rd, 2005 06:52 am (UTC)|| |
Hang in there, Jess. The best things in life *always* happen when you are least expecting them. Everyone has their up's and down's with things - you just have to keep plowing forward at any cost. Patience and perseverance are two things that are always well rewarded. :>