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Jessie T. Wolf
April 28th, 2004
12:12 am


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Tying Up Loose Ends...
Every time I think things are settled, I always end up with this looming feeling of unfinished business hanging over my head like some dark cloud. >.< Heard some rumors that a "friend" was talking crap about me, so I confronted said friend about this, because it was bothering me. I hate being on bad terms with people. And I always go out of my way to try to make things okay again.

But why do I do this? O.o Why can't I just forget about it, and move on? Why do I care if someone is spewing crap about me or not? Anyone who knows me well enough will know better anyway. And any person who would automatically believe something negative that someone else tells them before they even get to know me themselves, don't deserve my attention anyway.

Needless to say, the conversation with this friend of mine didn't really do much anyway. Every time I talk to this person, I forget half the things I wanted to say, or points I wanted to make. Half the time I never even know if I can believe what this person tells me anyway, as they have a history of lying through their teeth. I also worry for the sake of others who may get treated the same way by said person, and I hate to just sit by and watch it happen. >.<

Why do I still want to amend a friendship with someone who is like this? Because I remember all of the good times we did have... that's why. And I just can't believe how that was lost... how it turned so sour, so quickly. I feel for pat_the_fox, as he's recently gone through something similar. :/ *sends hugs out to Pat*

I don't hate this person. I don't think I ever could. But... I'm just really, really disappointed that things couldn't have turned out better, that's all. I just have to keep on telling myself that I did what I could, and now it's not worth dwelling over. I'm moving on. Hopefully this feeling of disappointment will leave me soon.

Must get work done...

Current Mood: disappointeddisappointed

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Date:April 27th, 2004 09:55 pm (UTC)
I think it's impossible not to feel disappointed after a person you trust and care for does anything as despicable as that.
But, yeah, people like that are not worth it, and I guess you should move on and forget about that person, though I can understand why would you try and make things okay.
*hugs* I really dislike people who do that, and I'd do anything I could to make it better.
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Date:April 27th, 2004 10:46 pm (UTC)
I don't like to leave loose ends for friendships. I like to have resolutions, preferably where everyone is happy. But that's not always possible. My last headbutt with a friend over ridiculing art subjects should be proof of that.

You did what you could do, as you said. That's all any of us can ask from anyone. *hug* It will pass, dear. It will pass...
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Date:April 28th, 2004 10:41 am (UTC)
Yep, we are only slaves of own sensations.
Everything what hurts now, the time will take away.
Yeah, you can run away from him, but beware on forever running.
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Date:April 28th, 2004 12:22 pm (UTC)
*waves hello* Thanks. :)
Date:April 28th, 2004 09:43 pm (UTC)
Furries are like that. They hear some nasty rumour about someone else and jump on the band wagon," YEAH! Man that guy's a real prick! Everything you say about him must be true, even though I don't know him!" I've dealt with that before.

And I know all about trying to talk to people and having them NOT believe you. I went through all the effort of trying to apologize to this one friend. I wrote out a long apologetic letter, tried to list solutions to the problems we were having. What did she do? Started spreading rumours saying I was lying about wanting to fix things, told everyone I was a prick and certain other untrue things about me (don't wanna nasty up your jourlal with exactly what she said).

And honestly, she made me really NOT want to stay friends after that. Just shows that by at least being the assertive one, and asking for forgiveness, leaves you looking like the good guy in the end. While she's off badmouthing me, the people she's told these nasty rumours to are getting to know me personally. Nice strategy there, sparky. =P
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