Looking At My Life... - Jessie T. Wolf — LiveJournal
Looking At My Life...|
...I need a better one.
So, I went out today, to run errands. Had some banking to do, (whoo! I actually have a bit of spending money now!) and then scanned the area for job opportunities. I grabbed some applications for No Frills, Blockbuster, Tim Horton’s, McDipshit’s (but I’m using that as a LAST resort!) and a couple other places. At this point, I’m trying not to be too picky about work, because the simple fact is I NEED a job. Even if only part-time, so that I can start saving up again, and also so that bloody Customs doesn’t have anymore reason to deny me at the damn border! I need to get to AC, or I will go on a killing spree. >.<
But anyway, I happened to stop by Pet Valu, cos Kevin was in, and I got to talking to him. It turns out that he may actually be leaving in a few weeks, cos he may be getting a better job. So when I told him I was looking for a new job, he told me to leave a resume, and he put it at the top of the pile. Kevin said that he’d make sure that Chris and Tina know that I’m looking for work, since the manager at Pet Valu already knows me. Yee… it would be cool if I could get a position there at least. Working at a pet food and supplies store sure as hell beats working a crappy fast food restaurant job. Plus I live just a ten-minute walk away, so I won’t have to spend money on bus fare anymore. Here’s hoping I get the job. O.o
In the meantime, I have five commissions on the go, plus I wanna try to get another piece up on FurBid sometime this week, so that I at least have something going on auction while I look for work. Been kinda getting back into a productive drawing mood again. :)
On a more serious note, I’ve decided that I want to move to Arkansas. This is something I’ve been thinking very seriously about, since I think that the lifestyle change would be much better for me. I’ve lived in the city all of my life, and I’ll admit that it’s never really done much for me. I’ve never really been into the busy, exciting city living. In fact, large crowds and busy streets have always made me a bit nervous. :/
I’ve been trying to look at just what I’ve accomplished within the past four years, since I graduated from high school, and sadly, I find I really haven’t gotten anywhere at all. :/ Even after getting my diploma in special effects makeup, finding a job in the field is useless, because I missed the first part of the course, and without your basics, no makeup studio or company will ever hire me. And it’s not like I have the money to go back and take the section of the course I missed. So I’m no longer going to school, and I currently have no job, or any real career plans for that matter. I did have that Doggie Daycare idea, and I haven’t fully given up on that… but I had to put it on hold because it just wasn’t taking off, and I can’t afford to not be making money while I wait for a dream to kick start. I may try it again later, when I actually have better funds and more space.
But for now, what do I do? My hopes of moving out of my mom’s house in June are dead. Things are just not working out, as far as that’s concerned. I guess six months was a bit of an unrealistic amount of time to plan things out. Even if it had worked out, living in Toronto is HORRIBLY expensive, and also finding a place that would allow me to keep my two dogs would have been a bitch as well. :/ *flicks her ears* So I’m sitting here thinking, just WHAT exactly do I have, if I continue to keep on living here? Aside from my friends, (who I LOVE to death, and I would truly miss…) I really don’t have much going for me here. :/
Now, I know most people might think that making such a big decision based off of visiting Arkansas for only ten days is a bit of a jump… but I have to look at the pros and cons here. Fayetteville is a REALLY nice town! O.o It was SO not what I was expecting, at all. It’s not huge like Toronto, but it’s not a tiny hick-town either, which I like. People there seem fairly friendly and decent, and there are a lot of places (restaurants, banks, shops, etc.) within walking distance. Even if I needed to get further into town, they have a free bus service, (!!!) and there’s a university, like, RIGHT close by. Rent is also CHEAP! So I could pretty much live off of a part-time job and still be able to afford rent, AND still have time to work on/sell artwork on the side. The apartments are also pet-friendly, so I would be able to keep my boys. There’s also a lot of open space, woods and stuff, which is also ideal for the dogs.
Already having friends there as well is a BIG bonus, cos I wouldn’t want to live someplace where I don’t know anybody. O.o Also, I’ll have the chance to explore a possible relationship with someone special… *blushes* So yeah. Living in Fayetteville, moving in with the NARFA crew, just seems very ideal to me. It’d be the kind of calm, laid back, simple living that I’ve always wanted. I don’t ask for much out of life. Just a small apartment with reasonable rent, a decent job, the time I need to work on my art, lots of friends, a comfortable relationship, and a good environment for my animals. Living in Fayetteville, I’d have a better chance at actually having all of these things. And if I don’t take that chance, how will I ever know if I can be happy? It’s something I’d like to seriously consider.
And with all of that, back to my art I go. :)
Current Mood: hopeful
Having made a gigantic move for reasons of the heart, I can understand. Unfortunately, that relationship didn't work out, and it left me in a less-than-stellar financial state, but I'm still glad I did it. I would have always regretted it if I hadn't tried! =)
Just make sure you keep logic at the forefront of your decisions. If you DO move, do it slowly, and plan everything out. Make sure you have a financial cushion, make sure all loose ends are tied up, and most of all, make SURE you have a job as soon as you move there! Being in a new town without steady employment is the pits, let me tell you, and going into debt is horrible - whether it's to a friend or a major financial institution.
*nods in agreement* Moving is tough. Then again, I'm not much of a traveler. Like firesplace said, just make sure you know what you're after and you have a backup plan in case things don't work out.
*points at herself* Hypocite! o_O
|Date:||April 19th, 2004 03:56 pm (UTC)|| |
*nodsnods* Oh trust me, I know. O.o That's why I've just been thinking a lot about this. If I do move, I want to make sure that it's for the right reasons. Part of it is reasons of the heart, but the both of us do realize that there is always the chance that things may not work out. But even if they didn't, we'd still be friends, and I'd still have the lifestyle that I've always wanted. So either way, I wouldn't be losing very much.
As far as a job goes, I'm sure it wouldn't be that difficult, even if I had to settle for a crappy fast food thing until I could find something better. But this type of plan is something that wouldn't take place for a GOOD while, as I need to find a job here FIRST, before I do anything. I'd want to be sure that I had enough saved up that I could live reasonably for at least six months if I do end up moving.
So yeah, I'm not jumping into this RIGHT away... but it IS something to think about and plan out slowly. *nods* Thanks for your words of wisdom though. ;) *hugs*
Heh, good luck. :) You'll be fairly close to me, oddly enough. grins
Fayetteville is nice. That part of Arkansas is really comforting. I'm hoping to go to school at a place on the other side of the hill range in Tahlequah. Very impressed with the relaxed atmosphere. I could definitely use that sort of change...
Mmm, I wonder if I can get someone to take me to Oklacon...I saw 2 was going to be there and was ecstatic. I'd love to hear him live.
I find it funny how Oklahoma has like, NO furry conventions, save for that one. I'd never heard of it before. You'd think we'd have more, being so close to Arkansas and what not...hmm.
Anyway, good luck, I hope the best for you! If you're anything like me, I think you will greatly enjoy the change of scenery and the change of pace. :)
|Date:||April 19th, 2004 05:09 pm (UTC)|| |
Actually, Oklacon is just a new con. :) I think it would be defanitely worth the trip, if you can find some way of getting there. 2 will be there as their Guest Of Honor for this year. His shows are brilliant. ;)
And thank you for the kind wishes! ^^
nods Yeah, I figured it was pretty new. :) And yeah, I saw that about him being GoH! Definitely a good reason to go.
And your very welcome! I understand how draining being in the city and away from decent opportunities can be. :\
And best of luck with your relationship too! cheers
*fingers crossed* I hope you get the PetsMart job! Sounds like a much nicer place to be than the other possablities. :)
|Date:||April 19th, 2004 05:10 pm (UTC)|| |
Thank you! *HUGS*
I dunno about Arkansas. =^.^= Why not move to Florida? :)
|Date:||April 19th, 2004 05:31 pm (UTC)|| |
Florida's too hot, and I hate palm trees. O.o And I'd still be too far away from my Gryphy. >.
Oh yeah, your Gryphy, silly me. ^.^
And actually we have more pine trees than palm trees really, especially in the interior. And Arkansas does get hotter in the summer; it just FEELS hotter in Florida due to the humidity @.@
|Date:||April 19th, 2004 11:19 pm (UTC)|| |
Well, I had to chime in, seeing that this is something I've delt with on a personal level.
There I was, 20 years old. I had graduated from one of the top Private High Schools in Chicago(De La Salle Institute if ya wanna know). I had spent 4 years in service to the city; 2 of which working for the Chicago Police Department as a Junior Cadet while I was in School, and 2 other years(summers anyway) working for the Fire Department, getting a solid Paycheck for assisting in tasks and teaching others about Fire Safety. I was 20 years old, had some college under my belt, and where was I?
Living in my parents attic, working for a local liquor store.
Then I moved to Milwaukee. I was NEVER in Milwaukee for any length of time over 3 hours, and here, I made the bold jump, a leap of faith if you will, to move into an apartment as a room-mate with my girlfriend, apply for a security guard job, and live in a city I know nothing about.
Oddly, it was the BEST thing I have ever done. I have freedom, but responsibilities. I'm only limited by my laziness. The world is my burrito, and I'm layin on the extra hot sauce!
I told you 4 years back Jess, you need to get outta there. Maybe livin' on your own, even if yer roomin' with someone, will change you. Question is, are you ready to get offa yer butt and work to maintain your freedom?
|Date:||April 20th, 2004 01:01 am (UTC)|| |
Re: Personal Experience
Damn straight I am, Foxy. ;) Thanks for your support hon... it really means a lot to me... *HUGS tight!* Love ya, Gabe. I'm glad you're doing well on yer own with Kota. :) How's the wedding plans coming?
|Date:||April 20th, 2004 09:31 pm (UTC)|| |
Re: Personal Experience
Wedding Plans = Evil.
Money = root of all evil.
Wedding > Money, BUT, Money > Evil
So, Money > Evil, and Women > Money.
Which means, Women = Wedding Plans.
Which Translates to, Women = Evil.
I've been looking for work for about 2 months now. Chances are you'll find a job before I do. I must be on a blacklist somewhere. People get my resume, look up my name, and this big block of text appears that says," DON'T HIRE THIS GUY! HE'S AN ASSHOLE!"
|Date:||April 20th, 2004 12:57 am (UTC)|| |
Awww... you're not an asshole! *hugs* Thanks though. ^^ Hope you find something soon as well. O.o
Well I KNOW I'm not. But I can't understand how I can apply for all these good jobs, one of them I was 100% qualified for, and nobody ever calls me back. Well, except the shitty telemarketing jobs. *sigh*
No job for the wuff. =(
|Date:||April 20th, 2004 02:16 am (UTC)|| |
I hope you get you dream to come true and have the means and opportunity to move yourself and your precious babes (the dogs) to Arkansas. I agree with the others, take that leap of faith - I am. My husband and I are moving to Ottawa in a month. Thing is ... he's in Kitchener, ON and I'm in this hole in the wall place called Pittsboro, MS. A thousand miles apart, and we'll finally be together in a big city I know he loves. So, take the leap. Your heart will give you the wings. *hug*
|Date:||April 20th, 2004 02:12 pm (UTC)|| |
*hugs* Thanks! Actually... do you have AIM at all? I figured since you and your hubby have already gone through the whole US/Canadian marriage thing, I could get some info from folks who are experienced. Was the process very hard for you both? Good luck with your own move!