May 3rd, 2005

Hellhound Jess


Yes! I AM indeed still alive and well! Sorry for dropping off the face of the earth for a while there. O.o My life has been hectic and boring all at the same time. Little bit of home issues, little bit of drama at work, a lot of procrastinating on artwork that I should have been doing, (but I AM still getting down the list, before Anthrocon rolls around).

But most importantly, I had a little vacation last week, when fiskblack (Kitty!) came over to visit me. :) I'll spare most of the fine details, and just say I REALLY liked having his company. It's helped to clear my head a little bit, as far as past relationship issues are concerned. I'm starting to feel a teeny bit more confident again. Mind you, I'm still taking it easy, and taking my time to settle into something I feel might be right, and good for me.

Sooo... I guess you could say that Jay and I are kinda casually dating right now. Nothing solid, or set in stone just yet, (as I still have some rather irrational past relationship fears that cause me to still be the slightest bit hesitant in situations like these...) but I find that when I'm near him, the more time I spend with him the more attached to him I get.

It's funny, because when I first went to pick him up at the airport, I was rather standoff-ish and a bit cold towards his affections. Of course, by the end of the week, I didn't want him to leave, and was clinging to his arm for dear life. O.o I wish my brain could make up it's mind a bit faster. But for now I'm fairly happy with what we do have so far, and I'm eager enough to see where things might lead in the future. :)

In other aspects of my life, I REALLY need to start getting social again. O.o I haven't been online in ages, and when I am I'm usually hiding. I do miss talking to my friends... I just haven't really had a whole lot to say, I've found. But I'll need to start touching base with folks again, and stop being so hermity. I don't want to come off as rude or anything. I've just been really... REALLY antisocial. Hopefully con time coming will help me to loosen up, and step out into the light of Life again.

Work at the vet clinic has had its ups and downs. I find I disagree with a LOT of the things our manager does, but I keep my mouth shut about it. Had a little drama... my first few really bad days. But for being there for nearly a year, a few bad days is a pretty damn impressive thing. For the most part, I love my job! Even though I feel I should probably be getting paid a hell of a lot more than I'm being paid right now. X.x

And the doggies are doing well. Except it's now looking like Zena may be developing a slight leash aggression problem, that I will have to quickly work on training her out of. I'll also be getting a year-old Bichon Frise to train, before he can be adopted out to his new home. Know a family who is afraid to deal with his bad possession aggression problem, and it seems that they've been threatening to put the dog down. I know someone who'd be willing to adopt him instead, if I can whip him into shape. I figure if I could teach Calvin not to growl and bite whenever you go near his food (and he's an older, much LARGER dog) I can teach a Bichon puppy that that kind of behavior is not acceptable. Dogs don't mess with me, cos they know I'm the boss, and I'll win. ;) *huffs and looks all buff and bristly* Oh yeah, I'm a tough bitch. ;)

Also! I'll be updating my website after Anthrocon. Wanted it to be before, but I doubt I'll have the time. So sometime shortly afterwards I will be updating my site with some added sections, one being a color pencil tutorial that was suggested to me. I think it's a good idea! Also, I need to fix up the layout a bit, I think. And I've been pondering over creating a fan art section just for Scarlet Vixen. How many people would like to see more of Scarlet? It seemed for a little while there that she was starting to get a bit popular. O.o Any input folks would like to give? I like suggestions on how I can make viewing my site more appealing!

That's all for now. :) I will try to update more regularly in the near future!
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