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Hopeless Romantic... - Jessie T. Wolf
December 26th, 2003
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Hopeless Romantic...
I know it's a bit late, but Merry Christmas to everyone out there. Hope you all are enjoying the holiday season. :) For me, it hasn't been a huge event this year. vlen is here visiting Blue and I until New Years, and he came all the way from Alberta. ^^ I went with my mom to her friend's place out in Whitby for X-mas dinner, like we do every year.

While we were there, I got to watch the movie "Serendipity" which I really enjoyed. ^^ I'm a sucker for those romantic movies. Guy and a girl meet each other in the middle of New York, end up liking each other, have a wonderful evening together, but then end up parting ways. A few years later they're both engaged to different people, but they both start to find clues pointing to the other, and they end up trying to hunt each other back down. The movie blends love and fate together quite nicely, I thought, and I couldn't help feeling all mushy inside. ^^

I dunno if I believe in fate or not... but I still like the romantic fantasy behind it. I guess I'm a little old fashioned that way. I live in a Fantasy World, where I have someone who cares about me deeply, who holds me tight and keeps me safe and secure. And I'm happy, and feel loved. And although in the back of my mind I know it's not real, it's a heavenly escape from the harshness of reality. I still like to try and believe that there's a "One True Love" somewhere out there waiting, and will one of these days finally find me and sweep me off my feet...

But then again, maybe that's all just a bunch of bs. I think that, as much as I want to still believe in that, past bad relationship experiences have conditioned me into shutting down, and keeping my heart locked up, where nobody can get to it. As much as I want to open myself back up to someone, there's still that wall there... blocking, wanting to keep me safe from harm. I want to love and be loved again... but I'm afraid of disappointment. So best thing to do is just don't expect things. Don't get attached. Don't let feelings and emotions get the better of me.

Or just go with the flow of things. Live each day as it comes, let whatever happens happen, let "Fate" take its course...?

*sighs* Maybe I should just continue living in my Fantasy World...

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From:(Anonymous)
Date:January 7th, 2004 11:04 pm (UTC)

chivalry and romance are dead

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Tere is always something in your life to be high about!!
dont wait for some man-pretty david bowie clone knight in shinning armour to tell you how unique and special you are or to treat you the way you know you deserve to be treated. Be the lover of your own soul.
there is a difference between being lonely and being alone( all one ) in times when you feel lonely you should try to make friends with yourself. only you can complete yourself. you can manifest all the magic and wholesomness of your fantasies into the world. besides it takes less effort to have a relationship with yourself than it does to seek out some dude/dudette.
If its sex that you want I hear that Iron Raptor is available. he wears armour perhaps he can sweep you off your feet.
From:(Anonymous)
Date:January 7th, 2004 11:06 pm (UTC)

Re: chivalry and romance are dead

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Oh I almost forgot there is no such thing as fate.
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From:wlfdog
Date:January 8th, 2004 01:08 am (UTC)

Re: chivalry and romance are dead

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I really aught to take the Anonymous option off of my LJ... If you're going to state an opinion on something, you should at least have the confidence/courage to leave your name behind.

And what the heck does sex have to do with anything, let alone Iron Raptor? He's too good of a friend for me to think of him as anything else. And besides, he's already someone else's Knight in Shining Armour. No, I'm not looking for sex. I could care less about that, else I'd be screwing every guy that offered. *smirks*
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From:kamberlane
Date:January 8th, 2004 01:33 am (UTC)
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OOo! ooo! I'm offering! Me me! Pick me!
*Shakes head* Sheesh. Not sure what the heck that was all about. I think you have it right on that last one.. Live things as they come. they will often surprise you, sometimes in incredibly crappy ways. Sometimes in wonderful glowing ways.
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From:scullyraptor
Date:January 14th, 2004 08:40 pm (UTC)
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A belated happy holidays to you as well ^^

Serendipity is such a great movie! I loved the entire concept behind the story and the way it all played out.

And I know what you mean about the whole romantic fantasy vs. BS thing... I love watching movies like that (and Sleepless is Seattle, You've Got Mail, Great Expectations, Ever After...etc) but sometimes I start to feel bitter about the "happily ever after" part. I guess it's the same thing that I used to feel back in high school when the student government did these fundraisers, selling carnations, which got delivered on Valentine's day, and it seemed like everyone got secret carnations from other people but me. One year my younger sister got five, and she gave me one... but that's nowhere near the same ;)
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From:wlfdog
Date:January 15th, 2004 09:15 am (UTC)
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I know exactly what you mean. O.o Still, I tend to really love Valentine's Day. Gives me an excuse to act all sappy and romantic. ;) I'm such a freak. :-P
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From:scullyraptor
Date:January 15th, 2004 11:08 am (UTC)
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Yeah, no matter what I always love it ^^
There's nothing quite like freaking out people by sending them valentines out of the blue ;)
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